Weigh & Measure 10-31-05

I weighed and measured this morning. The measurements shown for thighs, and arms reprsent the length of each theigh and each arm. The total amount lost/gained has automatically been doubled.

My last weigh date was 08-09-05

ok here goes. this includes both arms, legs,

Bust -4 inches
Waist - 5.75 inches
abdomen -6.50
Hips -6.00
Thighs -8.00
arms -6.00


Weight I've lost 22.60 lbs

Total inches since last weigh in is 36.25

It Can Be Done

With every ounce and every inch I lose is a big accomplishment, even if I gain some back it's ok because I am going to get back on track and start over again. The key is not quitting and not giving up. IT CAN BE DONE BECAUSE I AM DOING IT!

It's been a long time.

I have on a real pair of " non-stretch blue jeans with pockets and a zipper" the size is a.....................22. Their still a little tight in the stomach but I think it's mostly because I've only wore stretch jeans for years and was used to them. I weigh Monday. I will be happy if I've lost 5 more lbs but if not then that's ok too, at least I am losing inches because I tried on the same pair of jeans 2 weeks ago and couldnt get them zipped.

Leigh

85 gone!

I got on my scales yesterday morning and had lost 2 more lbs making it a total of 85lbs!!!!!!!! I'll post a pic when I hit 100.

Leigh

I am not a loser!

Why is it when someone loses weight they call themself losers? Or someone will say "Your a loser!"

I know this is suppose to be a compliment but I don't consider it one. I think, as overweight people we consider ourself losers to a certain point, and it's not from losing weight. I can't tell you how many times I've thought, "It wouldn't have happen if I wasn't fat." "My picture would have been on their wall if ..."I wasn't fat." but it's not because their ashamed of me. You notice every little thing and you make it worse by telling yourself this stuff.

I have spent my whole life dealing with my weight problem and I am not about to be called a loser just because I have lost some weight. I consider myself a winner. I have been losing weight for almost a year and I'm fighting every waking moment not to eat something I know I can't have, this does not make me a loser it makes me a determine, self control WINNER, because I'm fighting and I am winning my eating disorder.

To Eat Healthy or Not To Eat Healthy?

I have found that sometimes it's just as easy to eat healthy as it is to eat unhealthy. I just have to plan my meals and snacks better before I go to work and make sure that I am stocked up on healthy food instead of something I can't have. I would love to go to a snack machine and see something in there that I can eat besides chips, cakes and candy bars. For example for work this evening I have chicken in the oven baking but I don't have a clue as to what to take for a couple of side dishes so I'll have to go stand in front of the pantry and see what jumps out at me.

I'm eating too many snacks so I need to cut back on those. I also need to lay off the ice cream. one fudge stick use to be enough then 2 was enough but I find myself wanting something else so I'm going to try to lay off them for awhile, and popcorn. I'm also going to try and freeze the sugar free coconut pie I bought last night and eat a slice about once a week or so.

Photo taken 5-27.05

I have been off and on so many diets that it's not funny. I would stay on one from a week to five months and then go off it and start back eating again then I would gain all of my weight back + more. Of course your going to gain more back if you go back to eating exaclty the way you were before you started the diet, you can't help but not too. Look at it like this. If you had not started the diet where would you have been say 2 years from the start day? maybe 10-50 lbs more? Ok now Since you did start your diet and you did lose weight and you lost 30 lbs in 6 months then you stop losing you get bored and aggravated because you've reached a plateau and your thinking what's the point right? So, you stop your diet and pick up your old way of eating so of course your going to gain back everything you lost plus more.I think that everyone thinks their weight should stay the same while they eat unhealthy foods. Hey I would love to sit down to a BIG bag of chips and some french onion dip but I'm not going to and I'll never be able to do that again. I KNOW I can't touch anything sweet, as in chocolate cake that just came out of the oven with gooey melting chocolate frosting with a large cold glass of milk. I would love to grab a whole pan of cake and eat it, but I cant. I love Krispy Cream Donuts but I can never have one because I KNOW I can't stop at just one so I stay away from these things.

Oct 24 2004

The day that changed my life.

We walked into Curves, very nice. It had purple and green walls. lol I know it sounds awful but honest it was really nice and the staff was great. After the paperwork was finished we were weighted and I weight 353 lbs. After going around the circuit once I laughed and told my friend I loved it and it was fun. I never thought I would say that about exercising but I honestly do love it. As of today 09-29-2005 I have lost a total of 80 lbs. Ok I will try to add something here every day, it may be a lot and it might not be that much.

Sept 2004

I received a call from my sister, she lives on the other side of the state, she was telling me that she joined Curves and that she loved it and how much fun it was.

I called my best friend and told her about Curves. We looked on the net to see if there was one near us, we found one 45 minutes away.

Summer 2004

It got to be very hard for me to do anything without getting out of beath. Wehn I walked down the hall at work I had to hold onto the wall for support, pulling myself up the steps when I came home by holding onto the storm door. A few times I have had to pull the chair up to the sink to sit in just so I could do dishes. I hate being ignored and treated like I'm stupid just because I'm fat, yes I said the f word. I have always used over weight but lets face it it amounts to overweight =fat.I have never liked going to the dr, I know no one does but my reason is different. I was afraid I couldn't get on the table or once I got on the stool I couldn't turn around to sit on the table without falling off. My life was a mess and it was only going to get worse unless I did something about it.One day I went to a gym with my daughter and worked out for 45 minutes, which I thought was great and I was really proud of myself. Well let me tell you...I paid for that 45 minute workout for the next three weeks. My knees liked to have killed me and I never went back.

Friendships are Special.

A very special friend came across a blog and thought I may be interested in started one. His words "I know you enjoy writing, and thought you could use your joy of writing, along with your progress, as a tool to help keep motivation high . . ." And I've been on the computer almost all day trying to learn how to do this. Duke, You are a dear and special friend, you always give me a shoulder to cry on when I need it and you always give your honest openion. . .Yes I do listen... I thank God for your friendship and thank you for you believeing in me.

Photo was taken 03-19-2004

My highest weight 353